Chains and Freedom

I'm sitting here in my room, so many thoughts racing in my mind.
The past, the present and the future.

Sin. I hate sin. I hate how it creeps in while we are unaware, at first we are aware, but slowly we allow ourselves to become weak-when we forget to cling to Him. we try to do it on our own, we forget how choosing HIM instead of SIN is far more worth it.

• Why do we choose death (sin) over life ( Him) ?

I don't understand this.
I ask:

• "Lord why did you give us freedom to choose you or not choose you?"
• "Lord why do we choose against you, and slap you in the face?"
  
• "Lord why have you let us..break your heart?"

And you continue to tell me because: "I LOVE you".
and then I realized: you risked your life for me, so that I may risk love, and have the freedom of choosing to love you back.



This song is my prayer:

"We confess that there is no other hope
and we repent God, for our wicked ways
I repent God for my double mindedness,
my heart so prone to wonder,
so quickly to cling to another
I've been leaning on the wisdom of man,
and I've been leaning on the lust of the flesh
and I've been grieving the holy spirit
and now I fall face down, down down. I repent.
And I tear my heart, I rip it open all that I've been holding onto, when you I forgotten, I take my heart and willingly, I rip it open, for I only want to cling to you, i don't want to cling to another, I've been chasing all those other loves and Ive forgotten you. NOW i take my heart and I humble myself in your sight, and I confess, I confess and I confess....I NEED YOU.

COME break the chains, the chains that hinder love..all that remains of yesteryear, come break the chains the chains that pull me down. Come break the chains and draw me near.
And let your fire burn consuming me, let your jealous flame come take away everything ....write your name upon my heart till all that remains is the light of your countenance. and I will be satisfied when i awaken as a lover of you......... as a lover of YOU. Whatever it takes, take it away, whatever it takes just take it away......."
" Break the Chains" -Misty Edwards.

The Lord speaks to us in this way:



1Blessed is he
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.

2 Blessed is the man
whose sin the LORD does not count against him
and in whose spirit is no deceit.

3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.

4 For day and night
your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.

5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, "I will confess
my transgressions to the LORD "—
and you forgave
the guilt of my sin.

6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you
while you may be found;
surely when the mighty waters rise,
they will not reach him.

7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.

8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.

10 Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him.

11 Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!

Psalm 32

Lord protect me, teach me, guide me and teach me how to be more like you.

I give him my chains to break, I have confessed,
I choose Him, I trust him, and I am able to walk in grace forgiveness and freedom.

How amazing is our God?