.LOST.

I was watching LOST tonight, yes I'm addicted to that show.
Just got done with Season 3! And going to start th 4th season soon.

But as much as it is dramatic and thrilling-it made me think. How really, we all are lost. With all the different characters on the show, their true selves are revealed of who they are and where they came from-they keep trying to find out more about their purpose and why things are the way they are;but in the end-they are still lost.

Sometimes I question really why am I here; and In the hard times I ask why do I have to go through this? and I know we've all questioned our purpose and meaning of life, but really if you think about it how can we not think we have some sort of meaning if we know that we were designed so wonderfully, each of us so uniquely by a Creator?
I feel like we live this life searching for meaning in any way we can. In a boyfriend/girlfriend in our friends; in our jobs; in our families. We are looking for something to make us feel worthy, valuable--meaningful.

But Ive come to a place where I finally believe that I do have purpose.
I'm lost when I choose to not show up for battle. I'm lost when I try to do it on my own, Im lost when I give up.
Everything I thought that would help me find my purpose, failed me.
Truly letting go of myself, and loosing myself-I began to find hope in Christ.
I am able to live, love and walk in that hope.

So remember, no matter what you're going through, or what you've been through, or what you're about to go through;


I have purpose
you have purpose
We have purpose.


Psalm 33:11
"But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations."

Psalm 138:8
"The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures forever— do not abandon the works of your hands."

Romans 5:1-8

"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

Chains and Freedom

I'm sitting here in my room, so many thoughts racing in my mind.
The past, the present and the future.

Sin. I hate sin. I hate how it creeps in while we are unaware, at first we are aware, but slowly we allow ourselves to become weak-when we forget to cling to Him. we try to do it on our own, we forget how choosing HIM instead of SIN is far more worth it.

• Why do we choose death (sin) over life ( Him) ?

I don't understand this.
I ask:

• "Lord why did you give us freedom to choose you or not choose you?"
• "Lord why do we choose against you, and slap you in the face?"
  
• "Lord why have you let us..break your heart?"

And you continue to tell me because: "I LOVE you".
and then I realized: you risked your life for me, so that I may risk love, and have the freedom of choosing to love you back.



This song is my prayer:

"We confess that there is no other hope
and we repent God, for our wicked ways
I repent God for my double mindedness,
my heart so prone to wonder,
so quickly to cling to another
I've been leaning on the wisdom of man,
and I've been leaning on the lust of the flesh
and I've been grieving the holy spirit
and now I fall face down, down down. I repent.
And I tear my heart, I rip it open all that I've been holding onto, when you I forgotten, I take my heart and willingly, I rip it open, for I only want to cling to you, i don't want to cling to another, I've been chasing all those other loves and Ive forgotten you. NOW i take my heart and I humble myself in your sight, and I confess, I confess and I confess....I NEED YOU.

COME break the chains, the chains that hinder love..all that remains of yesteryear, come break the chains the chains that pull me down. Come break the chains and draw me near.
And let your fire burn consuming me, let your jealous flame come take away everything ....write your name upon my heart till all that remains is the light of your countenance. and I will be satisfied when i awaken as a lover of you......... as a lover of YOU. Whatever it takes, take it away, whatever it takes just take it away......."
" Break the Chains" -Misty Edwards.

The Lord speaks to us in this way:



1Blessed is he
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.

2 Blessed is the man
whose sin the LORD does not count against him
and in whose spirit is no deceit.

3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.

4 For day and night
your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.

5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, "I will confess
my transgressions to the LORD "—
and you forgave
the guilt of my sin.

6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you
while you may be found;
surely when the mighty waters rise,
they will not reach him.

7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.

8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.

10 Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him.

11 Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!

Psalm 32

Lord protect me, teach me, guide me and teach me how to be more like you.

I give him my chains to break, I have confessed,
I choose Him, I trust him, and I am able to walk in grace forgiveness and freedom.

How amazing is our God?